New Post Preview~

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I just realized that I forgot to give the preview for a new post I'm working on. I've been doing photos for it during my free time over the past two weeks and still have tons more to do. It'll be worth the time I'm spending on it though, I think. And it's gonna be really kind of... crazy and possibly distasteful...

Usually when I come up with ideas like this and mention it to someone ( mom, brother, friends), they'll talk me out of it saying "JFC, is that really something you wanna post on the internet?! REALLY?!" This time, however, is totally different in that everybody that usually talks me out of the idea is encouraging it to the max! I guess for once they agree? Some of my concepts seem a bit too disgusting and controversial even to me! I don't know yet if I'm going to take it that far, but oddly enough when I say something like that to any of my new-found supporters they respond with "No, no... I think you aren't taking this far enough! Now exactly how many shotguns are you going to need? ^-^"

We'll see, I don't wanna hype it too much because that always leads to a let down and disappointment (imo). *ahem* So here is the single, tiny, mysterious image preview:

A couple of days ago, I was working on a different part. One that required some totally off the wall weird makeup. I didn't know what I was gonna do yet so I went on YT looking for some inspiration and eventually found this super illuminatitastic look (on Key no less). At first I was like "OmM hahaha" because he has the triangles near his eyes (supermasonic satanotic illuminatic eye-triangle is the Lucifer!). Then I was reading the comments that were all "Ewww, worst makeup ever" and that's when I knew... that was exactly what I was looking for.

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Love it!

So for myself, I changed the look just a bit. I did the 3 triangle eye on the opposite side and made them a little bit smaller. I added white sparkly lips, white sparkly eye shadow, and straight thickish eyebrows.

Too bad the sparkly lips didn't photograph all that well. Haha








I made sure to crop out my outfit so as to not spoil the post I'm working on :b

I know it looks a little... out there, but I got nothing but compliments on it. Even my brother, who never hesitates to hurl insults about anything he finds slightly unappealing, seemed to think it was cool (he showed up out of the blue when we were taking photos and then he stole one of the cakes I made as a prop T_T). By the end of the day, I pretty much came to the conclusion that while the weird makeup doesn't look so great on camera, it is indeed more acceptable in person. One of my friends that was like "ewww" at the Key image before I did my makeup seconded that statement after seeing it in person. That's right, I'm promoting stuff on here again (evil makeup)~

(cr: maker)







And here's one last unofficial preview~

(BTW) I hope my SHINee spam isn't alienating ya'll (since it's in about every post lately) I'm purposely being as obsessed as possible with them, Narsha, Lady Gaga, and a few others during the time I'm working on the new post. I bet from that, you can guess exactly what one of the my concepts is gonna be! *eyes fill with fire* ò_ó




... I'm such a dork...

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Oh I'm sorry! Am I making you feel awkward?! :O

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(cr: showstudio.com)

About a month ago, after those Jo Calderone/Lady Gaga photos surfaced, I had this exchange with a friend of mine:

Friend: Wow, she sorta looks good as a guy. I dunno how I feel about that... lol

Me: Well, speaking as an androgynous person myself, I find it awesome!

Friend: You?... Androgynous? o_o

Me: Are you serious? Look at my jawline you fool!

Friend: Huh, I don't see it.

Me: Puhfft! Then what about a few years ago when I took those manly photos and masqueraded as my own boyfriend on the internetz?.. and nobody even questioned it!

Friend: I must've missed it, I don't remember...

Me: :[

Friend: Anyway, I still don't see it.

How could anyone not see it? I've been wreaking havoc and gender confusion upon unsuspecting people since forever! So don't even!

Anyway, I couldn't let the issue go. I sorta LOVE the fact that I'm androgynous and felt the need to prove my claim so I dressed as a guy for a day~ and I took some photos before going out to post here! I admit I don't have the masculine expressions down all that well but I tried haha. ^-^

Zoolanderish expression? K, here you go^












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I don't actually smoke, I'm just faking it~ :x











Starting to worry if I'm really gonna be fooling anyone.






Random paleness:





You may have noticed I gave myself a tan (and did a crappy job) in the previous photos because it just seems more masculine to me. I dunno, I never see guys as pale as I am... aside from vampire men~ Ya'll are free to prove me otherwise though!










When I came back after creeping people out all day, I ventured to add eyeliner to see if I could pull it off and still keep the androgyny up. My mom commented that I might've ruined it. So that's where I gave up.


... and transformed back to my normal self...









And I already posted the vampire photos so I'll end my picture spam here.

I think a few years ago I did a better job pulling this off because I put in tons of effort. Girls said I was dreamy back then. This time I got, "you're pretty nice looking for a guy.." which is better than noting I guess.



Alright, I hope that was somewhat entertaining... for some reason I always run into people that get offended by the crossdressing stuff because it "promotes bisexuality" or something? Sounds ridiculous right?! And what's wrong with me promoting bisexuality in the first place? Whatever~

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SHINee and Narsha want you... to be brainwashed by the Illuminati!

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I just LOL'd myself into the New World Order over here! You have to check out this article that MM informed me about earlier~

*Link removed because I have absolutely no intent on continuing to drive traffic to that website*

(If you must, it's an easy find through a search engine.)

I slightly regret posting that link since I don't wanna promote that insanity but OMM! It's so ridiculously hilarious and yet.. somewhat offensive. An article putting a bad light on SHINee, Narsha, Lady GAGA, and the Masons? Pffft whatever~

(credit to maker)

My dad was a Mason and a Shriner too... I think, he had the hat but it might've belonged to my grandfather (I'll have to ask my mom tomorrow). These haters can call them evil all they want, but that doesn't make it true. I will NEVER understand where they're coming from since the Shriners paid for several surgeries to correct birth defects I had when I was a lil child. It would've cost a fortune and we could not have been able to afford it otherwise. It was bad enough that I had people giving me crap about my obvious scars when I was growing up, but if I hadn't had the operations my childhood would've been an unspeakable hell. More importantly, they've helped tons of other kids with even more serious conditions than mine! Oooo so evil! /sarcasm

I'll admit that the few times I went to the Masonic lodge for a family picnic day or whatever (maybe it was really a bring your children to sacrifice day, but I would've never been considered due to my exceptional bitchiness and sassy attitude for a 6 yr old) I had some reservations. The building was huge, old, creepy and built before indoor plumbing... but I don't give a crap what they did there! Point is, how dare they even mention Masons and suggest them to be evil and satanic! And what the crap is this "SHINee literally surrounded by a Masonic checkerboard pattern. I guess we know who owns them."...

In addition to informing me about the LOLtastic article, MM also shared some other humorous info~

MM: People were talking like SHINee, Narsha, and every other group that has anything like this are a part of it. Anyone associated with Masonic stuffs... some even went so far as to blame capricorns for spreading the message.

Me: WHOA! Just hold on there! That's like... everyone I know XD

MM: I know! That's you, Jay especially (because he's cap and did the vid with symbolism a while back), your mom, that guy she's friends with. Are.... Are you part of the Illuminati?

Me: No... but say that I was... I probably wouldn't tell you. And then I'd probably make a post on my blog about how ridiculous all this Illuminati stuff is to throw ppl off track.

MM: LOL! XD


Totally off topic, but here, enjoy this video to clear your mind from that absurd article and my useless rant!~


(cr: 4minuteofficial)

Don't mind me, I'll just be over here doing some pelvic thrusts and chest pumps along to the music.

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Strange Outfits, Zombies or Vampires, & Good News! :D

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Cutout outfits!!!

Narsha's rockin' it!

Jong's got one too! Oh my, the outfit! Don't be afraid to dress like this boys, it'll get you nothing but love from us (me)! ♥_♥



As I was mentioning in my previous post, cutout outfits are so WIN! I've never had a bad day when wearing one. They're like my good luck charm! I'm not sure how much of it is due to the outfit itself, or a result of the confidence boost it creates. I mean you put something like this on and you're immediately "Yeah, that's right! This outfit is hot and all ya'll know it. That's why you're staring at meh struttin' right now, bish!" Haha, actually I assume people are just staring because I look like a freak but still, I dun careh-eh-eh-eh-eh-eh!

So this post is dedicated to everyone that loves enticing and slightly risque fashion! I'm so glad that I keep seeing this type of clothing in MVs and stuff now! I wish I had the Narsha outfit so bad, maybe I can get one like it made. While I can't compete with her or Jonghyun, here's a few photos of outfits I have worn (unfortunately some of the best ones I wore I don't have photos of). Some of 'em have been posted here before:







(excuse my fat! My apartment has the worst lighting ever and as my friend already pointed out, somehow it makes me look way, wayyyy fatter than usual. & Sorry I felt the need to explain that and totally wasted your time, haha).

I think the trick to making this type of style work out well is making sure your cutouts are strategically placed. If you have your chest spilling out the top and shorts that are cut way too high, you're gonna RUIN the look. I think it looks best when the exposed areas are your back, across midsection, and maybe a little thigh (this applies to both genders).


*ahem* When we were snapping photos my mom decided that she had the most awesome idea ever and wanted me to take a pic of how not to wear the outfit. So she got one of me with my top open. She's so creepy! Here's the hilarious part, since my chest is small it like... doesn't even look offensive! Keep that in mind girls, the smaller your chest the more you can get away with when it comes to risque fashion! But yeah, even so, you probably shouldn't just walk around with you top open like this:

Now, you may have noticed in the last post that I mentioned the powerfulness of the style right?! To be honest I don't have a decent explanation for this. It's like people will gravitate to me when I'm wearing it. Some unknown force pulls them in and while confusing it may be, at the same time I can understand it... and it scares me.

For example, most of you know how I am concerning dating, relationships, and anything of the sort. Not interested! Well what if one day, some interested guy approaches me in a stunning black cutout getup? Then what?!

"Want. to. walk. away. but. so. much. in. common. oh. mah. gah. look. at. that. shirt. must. touch. exposed. skin... now!" *caves*


Zombie or Vampire!? Which do I pull off the best?!

^ Me in my Volturi style~ I did this after my androgyny photos in case you're wondering why my eyebrows look extra thick.










^ I made this a few months back but didn't post because it was right after I swore off the vampire topics! lol







^Zombiesque







^rawr?

Just wondering. I think I make a better zombie. Even putting the Twilight description of what a vampire should look like aside, most stories I've encountered depict them as being unworldly beautiful. I don't think I can get away with that at all... honestly I don't think a lot of the actors that play them can either (sorry, I have extremely high standards for UNWORDLY beauty). I can get away with looking like a zombie so... yeah! :b




Good News

Remember last month when I was overcharge on a bill by hundreds of $$$? Well, I got reimbursed for the incident. So now I have the money I need to travel to my stupid audition! Squee! I was sooo devastated that I was gonna miss it. Jay was even more devastated by the situation (cause I refused to let him help out). I can hardly stand borrowing money from someone in a normal situation, but in this particular one where I might fail and the money would be totally wasted... ugh... Sorry, there's no way I can justify that. I think my real lesson here is that my new part time job sucks and brings in almost zero extra income. I need to find something else, but what? It's difficult to find things when you dislike being told what to do and have a problem with authority. Hmmm.. let me know if anyone has any ideas! Hehehe ^-^

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By the way, due to my being socially starved living here in hell, I'm totally getting into this facebook crap. Feel free too add and say hello! Link: click
or just click the FB thingy to the right ova thar! :D
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